[	Current Mood	|	i miss you	]
[	Current Music	|	"Vindicated" Dashboard Confessional	]

I've been feeling so rushed lately, like for some reason I'm running out of time with something. Life is moving so fast, I can't believe I'll be graduating at the end of the year. There are still so many things I'd like to accomplish before then, I hope it's not too late. I never seem to use the time I have wisely, but it's got me thinking...

There are so many things that I'm thinking about now, like how much I've changed since last year, and that I'm beginning to slip away from things that used to be very important in my life. Lately I've been feeling like I'm drifting from very important people, but it seems like I have no control over it. I almost feel like I don’t have a best friend anymore, and at the same time I feel that it's their fault. I know that's a selfish thought, but it's almost as if I have no control anymore, like the more I want things to mend, the further apart they become.

I want more than anything for you to know how I feel, but I can't seem to bring myself to tell you. I constantly fear that I'll make things worse by bringing this up to you. What's happening to us? We used to be inseparable. We rarely talk anymore... do you feel the same way?

I've been reading a lot about colleges lately... and it scares the hell out of me. I wish I could make up my mind. I have no idea what I want to go to go to school for. I have a lot of ideas, but I can't really see myself moving into a career with any of my choices. I have so many ideas... biology, computers, sleep therapy, speech therapy for children, music, cosmetology? I wish I could just come up with something solid. Nothing seems to click or fall into place.

But in the end, things will work out. They always do, and it usually seems to turn out for the best. I guess after all I'm just nervous about what's going to happen next, but at the same time ...

I CAN'T WAIT!

I think this is enough rambling for tonight, I feel somewhat accomplished now... Iike I just lifted a few weights off my shoulders, so I'm just going to end with a simple

goodnight and goodbye.

[	Current Mood	|	sarcastic	]
[	Current Music	|	"Bring in the Pain"- MSI	]

i love taxes

i love having half of a paycheck because taxes give all my money to people with no intentions of working

i love rude people

i love back aches and hardwood floors

i love whore's that lie and cheat on their boyfriends 

i love arguing with friends who get mad over things out of anyone's control

i love the fact that school starts soon

i love venting all my anger in my livejournal.


The End.